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04:02pm 14/02/2008
 
 
Katie Scarlett
Kelly found out "somehow" that I had slept with Damian. I think the whole story's a bunch of bull shit but whatever. The end result is that for the rest of his life, Kelly will think I'm a worthless whore, and never talk to me again. I kinda expected it to happen eventually, so it's not exactly like I'm bothered by it. I mean, he pointed it out himself that we were pushing him out of "the family" and it was only a matter of time that we just forgot about him. Well, I guess he was right. He came over last night really fucked up and it gave me a chance to evaluate what happened, and be okay with the fact that I'll never see him again. He was at his worst last night, and it was easy to look at him and be disgusted and not want to see him again, either. I'm sure that's the exact reason he wanted to come over last night anyway: to get a chance to look at me and be disgusted. That's how it happens I guess.

I learned that I'm a habitual liar. Well, I always knew I was but I suppose now I'm admitting it to myself and others. Watch out, everyone. I don't know how I can be so bland about it. My new personal quest is distinguishing the outright lies I tell from genuine changes in my feelings. That probably doesn't make sense to you, my reader, but that's okay. The brain things I've been doing in my head would seem repetitive and dull if I told them to you as candidly and forthrightly as I could. Also, maybe a little horrifying. I don't think I think like a normal person. A lot of things don't bother me that would bother most people, or at least that's what I get from peoples' reactions when I talk to them openly. Maybe I'm just reading too much into what's going on. Maybe Occam was right, and the simplest answer is the best. Now I have to ask myself, is the simplest answer really the one I think it is? Or is it so simple I can't see it yet? That's why I've been trying to recruit people to be around me and help me be better.

K.
 
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i could've
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11:24pm 14/02/2008 (UTC)
 
 
i could've helped. i could have been there for you to help u out and be moral support. i never would have thought less of you for anything. but then u betrayed me. and i came over that fucked up on purpose. not so you would see all the good u turned your back on. not to remind u who was there when u dumped damian and how the first couple weeks were, but to show u what u have done to me. so maybee u would remember the good times like damons birthday and see how much u changed. i put my heart into u. we had something real good at first then u turned it black. and as long as u and damian are around each other neither of you are going to have good relationships and be happy. have fun figuring that out and being miserable together.
love, the best thing u ever turned away
 
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12:56pm 15/02/2008 (UTC)
 
 
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06:55am 15/02/2008 (UTC)
 
 
Damian Steele
who are you to say that you dont know me or anything about me i know more about katie and whats going on in her life more than anyone else ANYONE!!! i am her best friend and i dont think you have an opinion or right to say that i've been there though everything EVERYTHING!!! your rude for what you've said
 
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 night_breed666
 
07:03pm 15/02/2008 (UTC)
 
 
Damian Steele

oh ok yeah katie explained it to me what you meant and i feel like a jerk sorry for jumping to conclusions and assuming hope you wont hold it against me bro we should all hang out sometime
 
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03:58pm 17/02/2008 (UTC)
 
 
Katie Scarlett
So, I told D about how you wanted me to come over and fellate you, and he said he would totally give me a ride up there for that. Good on you!

K.
 
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